Monday, February 28, 2005
today in sch, i hav a prac lesson tat starts at 1-3pm but it kinda ended early lyk arn 2pm...den i hav to wait for lyk an hour or so for my next tutorial at 3pm....i was dere waitin and waitin till lyk 3.10pm den a female lecturer informed me tat my tutor isnt in sch 2day as he is on MC....haiz.....waited so long but no lesson....den somemore none of my classmates were dere.....and i am the only one dere attendin for the tutorial.....
was kinda tired so i drove back home wantin to sleep for lyk 2 hrs after tat i can carry on doing my FYP report (which i hav no mood in doing)....den i tried sleepin jus den, the Sony technical engineer called me and he say tat my laptop the webcam needs to b changed (cost$217), and tat the dvd drive reader also got prob needs to be change (cost$577) and den including service charge (cost$120) which adds up to lyk almost $1k haiz.........sianz...ah.............after hearin abt it.....den i couldnt sleep..........all tis r really am makin me feel down and vry lethargic man
So now i am doin my FYP project report and it kind of s***ks....its lyk the whole FYP project on manufacturin has been all done mostly by me and not my other 4 team members(but dey did some work also but as compared to me its nothin)....i still remembered i stayed up late in the wee hours of the morning and didnt even slept for the night, jus to complete the drawings of the project all by myself and my team members are all happily sleepin and dreamin in deir beds..... when i need dem.....and now i hav to also do a report which i am sick and tired of even lookin at it...........the report i am doing is vry tiring and all and its one of the hardest portion of the report bcos it has to include Autocad drawings and the processes of manufacturin it........warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i sometime wonder why i am in tis world or why am sufferin so badly....am i jus here to suffer cos i didnt hav a good past life or isit jus tat i am jus pure unlucky and too soft........haiz...........
.............jus hate it deeply....... i jus hate the life i am living in now ............. :( sniff....sniff...sniff......IS TIS WAT u Call LIFE cos everything arn me kinda gets worser and worser and i hate tinking abt it...and i am beginning not to lyk it......haiz.................so sad in tis world man.......i wish i could jus b in a faraway land (e.g a country or maybe....)where i can jus be alone with no worries and no care abt the world and leave everything behind and not b arn in a world wif so much stress and all....